New York: US actress Lena Dunham, who created generational hit show "Girls," has revealed that she had a hysterectomy aged 31 following a decade-long battle with endometriosis.
In an excruciatingly personal 2,400-word essay for Vogue, the New York Millennial star said she checked herself into hospital to demand her uterus and cervix be removed when the pain from the uterine condition became unbearable.
Endometriosis sees tissue that normally lines the inside of a woman's uterus instead grow on the outside.
"In addition to endometrial disease, an odd humplike protrusion and a septum running down the middle, I have had retrograde bleeding, a.k.a. my period running in reverse, so that my stomach is full of blood," Dunham wrote.
Her battle with the condition has been well documented. She was rushed to hospital last May after falling ill at the Met Gala, the hottest ticket in the New York celebrity calendar. In March 2016, she also underwent surgery when an ovarian cyst ruptured.
The hysterectomy, which was conducted in the fall, was her ninth surgical procedure, and has left her in mourning for the children she will not be able to carry.
"I made a choice that never was a choice for me, yet mourning feels like a luxury I don't have. I weep big, stupid sobs, alone in the bathtub or in the area where, in a terribly cliche turn, I have started crafting," she wrote.
But the essay ended on a more positive note as Dunham perused alternative ways to have children.
"I may have felt choiceless before, but I know I have choices now. Soon I'll start exploring whether my ovaries, which remain someplace inside me in that vast cavern of organs and scar tissue, have eggs," she wrote.
"Adoption is a thrilling truth I'll pursue with all my might. But I wanted that stomach. I wanted to know what nine months of complete togetherness could feel like. I was meant for the job, but I didn't pass the interview. And that's OK."
Dunham created, wrote and starred in "Girls," an award-winning sitcom that tracked the lives of 20-something women in New York's hip borough of Brooklyn. Critics say it has defined the social mores of that generation.